This couple got wedding rings with the waveform of their own voices saying, “I do.”
this year edc means electronic data capture.. if that’s not growing old i don’t know what is.
not complaining though. i am finally a part of something meaningful. i am proud of my work.
but this certain chapter of my life leaves a lot of people behind. it was hard at first, i was hesitant because i have always felt scared to be alone.. but all the drama.. lies.. jealousy.. made it easy for me to burn bridges with the fake friendships. felt like we were holding onto something that was not there anymore. my head told me to try.. try.. put effort into it u never know… you’ll get what you give.. but my heart was silent. my heart stood cold and made no attempt to feel any ounce of hope or faith. it was as if i had given up on my old friendships long time ago. the disappointments and betrayals were too much.
as i type this.. pandora sings to me “DO U THINK URE BETTER OFF ALONE…. “
i have to say.. yes.. i am. to everyone afraid to stand alone… to everyone who feels the need to be a part of a clique.. i had a clique.. and after i was a part of one i realized.. that’s not what i wanted. my definition of friendship meant something completely different from their interpretation.
friendship means.. trust.. honesty.. fun.. laughter.. real… effort.. sometimes irritation but still finding the patience to help or tolerate one another..
i am so thankful and blessed to be able to find new friends at work. i love smart people. being around them challenges me everyday. i am truly able to shine among this group of people. they are almost like my family.. they keep me sane.
and speaking of, i am so happy i have finally been able to fix my relationship with my family. i can not believe that it was only 2-3 years ago when i was never coming home.. never talking to my brothers.. not a word to my dad.. constant arguments with my mom.. to everyone searching for that unconditional love.. try looking within your family first. i am lucky to find my source of unconditional love, endless amount of patience and compassion, and true happiness within my family members. from my generic ed hardy tshirt and fedora wearing hardworking dad.. to my overprotective and caring beautiful mom.. to my two smart handsome hilarious brothers.. if it weren’t for them.. i’d be lost. i’d never be truly alone because of them. <3
i have not used any of these… so either i’m fortunate or completely missing out on life LOL